HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!! YOU ARE REALLY GETTING UP THERE, A BIG 42! WHEW... YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND WISH I COULD JUST TALK TO YOU. I MISSED YOUR SERVICE ON THE 9TH BECAUSE OF TRAFFIC ON THE WAY THERE SO I DON'T HAVE THAT FINAL CLOSURE AND BECAUSE OF LOVING YOU SO MUCH I GUESS I NEVER WILL. I WISH OUR FAMILY WOULD JUST PAY TRIBUTE TO YOU MORE HERE AND LOVE YOU AND LET YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THEY LOVE AND MISS YOU ESPECIALLY ON DAYS LIKE YOUR BIRTHDAY AND HOLIDAYS. BUT MAYBE THEY DO IN THEIR OWN WAYS. I DOUBT IT THOUGH. THIS SITE JUST MAKES ME FEEL CLOSER THAN EVER TO YOU. JUST LIKE MOM'S SITE. I WAS HOPING TO GET DOWN THERE TODAY BUT I HAVE TO WORK THIS EVENING AND AGAIN AT 6 AM IN THE MORNING AND WE DON'T KNOW ABOUT MONDAY YET. I MAY HAVE TO REST UP FROM TONIGHT AND TOMORROW. I LOVE YOU SUSAN AND WILL FOREVER AND ALWAYS. YOU ARE WITH KAREN NOW SINCE SHE PASSED AWAY ALSO. I DON'T THINK I'VE SEEN HER IN 30 YEARS SO NOW BOTH OF YOU ALONG WITH EVERYONE ELSE CAN BE WITH ME AND HELP GUIDE ME THROUGH THE REST OF MY LIFE. YOU CAN GET KAREN TO KNOW ME AGAIN... JUST HELP ME GET THROUGH THE NEXT FEW MONTHS WITH DIVORCING ROB AND EVERYTHING. I GOTTA GET OFF HERE. AGAIN HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH

Mommy, i could never imagined losing you at 14. It's the worst feeling knowing im never going to see you again. Never getting advice on my boy problems, never feeling your arms around me again. you are and were my bestfriend. i don' think the hole in my heart will over fill in. i will never forget our last conversations, some good, some not. you told me you were going to move home so we could see eachother every day. you told me you werent safe where you were, and you needed to be with me zach and will. and i said mom, i've been waiting so long to here you say that. and when we went to the airport they wouldnt let you in the gate becuase you didnt have a pass, so you hugged me for about 30  seconds for teh last time, and you said bye jewels, i love you. ill see you in a week or so if my plan works! and i smiled and said i love you too mommmy! i knew something was wrong when i didnt here from you for two days. but soon enough the police show up at the house and told us they found you, i fell the the floor and dad held me up. i cry every night before i go to bed at 3 in the morning, since i cant sleep. occasionally i sit on the bathroom floor and just cry and cry. i hold in my tears at school. no one knows about that though,.

i would do anything in the world just to see your smile again. to hear your laugh again. to smelll your perfume. your my guardian angel. i love you so much, and i always will.

jewels.

This is to my little cousin and like a little sister. We grew up so close together for the first 4 years of your life. You were and always will be the little sister I never had. I can remember so many things when you were little that I can't remember anything else about that time. You were the cutest baby.  I got in trouble alot because I would try to take up for you when you got in trouble. I would have taken your spankings if I could have. I was devastated when they told me you and your Mom was moving to California. I lost my little sister.  I was glad when you moved back to Ohio.  I wish we could have seen each other more.

3  years ago when I was going through a tough time, you and Dave were there for me.  I appreciated so much what you guys did for me.  You made me apart of your family. I could never repay you or say thanks enough for all you did for me.  I still have the scarf you gave me for Christmas and have been wearing it to keep you close to me and to always remind me of the big heart you had. I miss you so much and could kick myself for not keeping in better contact with you. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. Always know I love you and your kids, they are great and you did a wonderful job raising them as I told you did.  I will miss you and love like one my sisters.

                                     Patty

Susan, I love you so much and miss you so terribly. I just can't believe this has happened. I'm trying to understand it but i guess it's not for anyone to understand. You were the best cousin, almost half sister in the whole wide world. You and your mom, Aunt Sonja came to live with us when you were like 6 wks old. I remember my boyfriend Gerald (1952-2003) made fun of how ugly of a baby you were, he said you looked like a monkey. And you know what... you did! But after that early stage, OMG you turned into the most beautiful child and then beautiful woman in the whole world. Not only in your looks but your heart too. "You would do anything you could for anyone that needed you. You were always there for everyone. I love you and I will miss you for the rest of my life. I love you cuz!!!    I wish I could put things into words better because this doesn't tell even half of what's in my heart.